I know that I need to SEE something from him and not just the words. I allow the words to get to me more than I should. It is just hearing him say "I love you, I don't want a divorce. I want to work on things..." pulls at my heart. I have been wanting to hear those words for 6 months.

We all know that my husband is the king of cake and ice cream eating. He has been doing this for so long now. And maybe he is just saying these words to play me along for a little while longer. I just don't think so. I think he is starting to realize what he is doing and what he is going to be missing.

I guess the bottom line is that I need to go to the lawyer and start everything. I my H in the meantime shows me change, then I will have to find a way to repay my Dad the money. I wish one of you could hold my hand and force me into the building to do this.

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08