I am so confused. I talked to H last night for 45 mintues on the phone. He says he doesn't want to divorce, he loves me and wants to work things out. He doesn't want me to go to the lawyer and he is going to end it with the OW regardless. He has TM 2-3 times with messages about how he doesn't want to divorce, he wants to work on our marriage. Yet I haven't seen him at all.

I keep thinking that I don't want divorce and he doesn't want divorce then why the heck am I doing this?

There has to be another choice. There just HAS to be....

I have put off the lawyer until this afternoon. Physically doing this is so impossible for me.

Sara

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08