I’m doing OK… Just waiting… nervous...9 more days till my Father Son trip. I am trying to keep it together till July. I have made some positive decisions. I started that unhealthy thinking again about going away and thinking W may be setting up a meeting with OM. I was thinking about looking at the Phone bill to see if they have been communicating BUT…… I thought NO I have not done that in the last year…. I want to enjoy my time with my son and if I did see that they were talking it would ruin my time with him AND I could not do anything about it anyway… SOOOOO I am TRYING to look at the next 40 days as an “ANYTHING GOES “time. We can discuss any issues in July….
Got to get back to work talk to ya later
The Big H
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Kudos,H for not looking at the phone bill. I personally don't feel the way she has been acting toward you that she is talking to OM. But it is just my OP.
I hope that you have a wonderful trip with S and it willalso give your W the spave that she needs to think.
40 days!!!!!YYYYYAAAAAA
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
I am going to get hit by some 2x4's for saying this...but look at the phone bill. I say this as I am 100% sure she is not talking to OM and would not be going to Retro if she were. Put your mind at rest.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
I agree with Saf. You have carried her affair in your brain and made it a longterm thing, when it ended ages ago. Your wife is just that ---- your wife. She's not somebody else's girlfriend.
Yea you a probably right Sara.. And Saffie... I can check it at any time. I will have my lap top on my vacation and will have internet.
Once I rose above the noise and confusion Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion I was soaring ever higher But I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man Though my mind could think I still was a mad man I hear the voices when I'm dreaming I can hear them say
Masquerading as a man with a reason My charade is the event of the season And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
On a stormy sea of moving emotion Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean I set a course for winds of fortune But I hear the voices say
Carry on, you will always remember Carry on, nothing equals the splendor Now your life's no longer empty But surely heaven waits for you
Carry on my wayward son There'll be peace when you are done Lay your weary head to rest Don't you cry (don't you cry no more)
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
