So as this relates to the OG - I am still bitter. And suspicious. And believe that whatever happened there still weighs heavily on your mind and in your heart. I still don't think the break from him and time spent on us was long enough. I still don't think that there was enough distance. I don't think we gave it enough time. I don't think you really let go. I read much more that I really should have seen. Too much crap that is burned into my brain that i will not forget. If these memories still haunt me, I can only imagine that you still feel the emotions.
I've been thinking about the past couple of weeks and going through some of my recent posts. This one comment of mine has been bothering me a bit and I just wanted to clarify. I'm not sure if Mo2C is even reading the boards anymore, but I just wanted to get it out there.
The comments about the memories haunting me and not being able to forget...
I didn't want this to come across as that I would never forgive. I could, and for a couple of months there, I was. When it seemed like we were working on things, I didn't think about the hurt. I just focused on the good. I guess I just wanted to say that if part of Mo2C's reason for wanting to be separated is her fear of my never forgiving...
I could.
I just wanted to get that out there. I wouldn't want her fear about my feelings be a reason for being afraid to work on things, or being afraid of the outcome. I'm posting this here because I really don't see us having any R talks anytime soon. We've been speaking infrequently and only about the kids.
Now that I have that off my chest, I have been doing pretty well. Enjoying both my time alone and my time with the kids. We just went to a minor league baseball game last night. The kids and I had a great time. My son even caught (almost with his head) a foul ball. He was ecstatic. Since it was a minor league stadium in a rural area, it was very reasonable on my wallet. I was pleasantly surprised when I didn't have to empty the checking account to get us snacks.
