But I read all the success stories here, and I do still have the mindset of DBing to save my marriage. Wrong, I know.
I don't think that is wrong. You just have to make sure that the changes you make are sincere, and not just an attempt to save your M. If they aren't sincere, then they won't stick and even if your H does come back then you will fall back into the same routine and repeat the same pattern.
I know what you mean about people knowing. I saw someone that my H works with out and he said something about us getting a D. He said that another one of H's friends had told him. That was before he filed and I was devastated. I hated people knowing.
Also, I made the mistake of telling one of my "friends". She told everyone she came in contact with...seriously. Even people she didn't know that well. One of my friends called me and told me that this "friends" mother had seen him out and said "Did you hear about Kris??" Like she just couldn't wait to tell him. I hate gossip. We live in a small town too and seriously everybody here has heard. However...it doesn't seem to be such big news that we are reconcilling. People seem shocked when they see us out together.
Anyway, you will learn how to deal with those things and not worry about what people think. I know you have probably heard this over and over...but it DOES get easier with time.
Good luck on the job. It sounds like it could be really good for you. The telecommuting would be great.
I am sorry about the camping trip. I know that must be hard, but maybe you can take the girls to do something too. Something special, just for the girls...no boys allowed!
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Think I'll follow his lead and have the girls get him something, but I wont, and I'll just give him a card. I don't know.
