I have been thinking about why the kiss would be "disgusting". I don't know if the no sex thing has gone on long enough that we are drifting into the "incest syndrom" deal. But last night, as I was thinking about where and when, it just felt too wierd. I really can't see touching here or engaging that way any more.
This feels different than the whole fear of rejection deal. She is still not sending any signals that she wants any more either, but maybe I have driven myself so far from her and from desiring her that I have killed that in me for her.
