Bad day yesterday, in the morning when she dropped me off everything was ok. Then by the time she came home yesterday she had a hell of an attitude, I inquired and she blasted back with I got alot of things on my mind and some space would be nice. So I backed off went into the room, and started reading michele's DBing book. Around 2hours later she emerges in the room and she brings up our relationship talk. Something we both agreed that we would not have unless absolutely necessary. She continues to be all over the place saying that she believes Ilm putting to much hope in retrouvaille and this and that. Ans then she comes with well Im an unhappy person so yes all my thoughts right now are not going to be negative, and you need to ask yourself if you want to go through the next two months like this. Like I said I dont know what in the hell happened from the time we left each other yesterday morning until she got home from work yesterday afternoon. She consantly brings up her parents and how the divorced and how it effected her. Then she tells me that everytime she hears me talk she just feels im trying to say all the right things. I swallow my pride and I just respond with no, everything I say about you, our relationship, and our kids is straight from my heart. I dont just say things just for the thought of saying them. Then she comes with well I feel you will never be able to fully trust me again. I mean even if I came to you and say ok I want us to work it out, you will feel the need to check up on me. The only thing I said after that is, if you do that will you try and regain my trust/ Of course i got answer. Dont know whats next but I told her this morning, that I want to avoid these talks in the future until we learn the proper tools to make progress through them, because other than that nothing is getting accomplished. Her threapist wants me to go in with her next week for a session, I agreed. Told her whatever I can do to help I'm there. I dont know whatelse to do but act as if, and also give her some space. SO ill start taking the kids out to the playground and things like that, to get out of her area.
