Hi everyone, Still struggling to stop w/the texting and phone calls. I was doing pretty well until H started with the whole "I might go to Iraq" thing yesterday. I spent the day very sick to my stomach and depressed. It's not even a sure thing, I guess I just started missing the days when I was more than a flight benefit or a means to solve his problems. He did call me last night after I sent the email that said I wasn't too keen on the idea of house-sitting etc.; but I was busy and missed the call. Then for God only knows what reason, I started thinking about my dog (who he's taking care of right now). He was so skinny and frail looking when I had gone to visit on Monday and I got this mother-like concern for him late last night (I'm embarrassed to say it was midnight...). Anyway, I broke down and sent a text saying, "Jeffrey (my dog) seemed so frail,I'm worried about him; give him a special hug for me..." H texted back "Oh I will, he's laying in bed w/me now" To which I said "OK, good". I think H thought I was saying "goodnight" and left out the "night" part; so he just replied with a final "goodnight". "G'nt" I said. As I sheepishly sunk into my covers. I think it's safe to say that my visit with H brought out in me the same old behaviors I was just beginning to reform when I moved in with my Mom and started DB-ing. I will need you guys and your help to get back to really implementing those changes before I become a distant memory to H. That's all for now...
