H4H, I agree, the song was a sign from God, and this sign was directed to me too. The only other explanation is that she came up with the whole story, but I don't think so, it was truly divine.... and more I think about it and more I am sure. This was the most powerful hit to crack the wall she built around her, and this is why. This song is very funny, but it is in Italian, so there is no reason to air it in US, anyway.... I heard it when I was a kid, my father use to sing it. When I met W I thought that our situation (specially mine) was very well portrayed in the lyrics of this song, so I started to look for it and I eventually found a recording of it back in Italy!! Me and W use to listen to it dancing and laugh a lot about it... it was so us... so it became also our wedding song, because in a way it makes fun of us when we met.... if there was anything in the world that could remind W (and me) how we where when we met this was the song.... and if I think about it I cannot stop crying.... we didn't listen to that song for so long. The sign was Divine and was for me too, because I am very ready to through the towel, I don't know how I can forgive her for what she did, I can't truly say I still love her, and I don't know how I can cancel the image of her in bed with somebody else.... I don't think I would be able to ever touch her again. But I feel like God put his hand down and he couldn't do more then this..... and I hear him saying..... here it is, now is your turn, but I really don't know what to do. But I know... I need to forgive if I want to be forgiven. W invited me for dinner with the kids, I said I couldn't, she insisted a bit, but I said no. I could tell she was needy, but I am not ready, I am afraid to put my hopes up just to be hit again. Now I need some space, today it was a shock, I got used to the cold blooded W that hated me, wanted the big D more then anything else so she could be with her new BF. I'll take a warm bath. And I'll try to pray a bit to do the right thing.
