Real live is....part 4!

[Starshyne]

I know, I know nothing is going to change. He is still going to be with OW and I am still shuffling between houses. I do think that H tried to call to talk me out of the meeting, but then again maybe not. I did discover something interesting today. When I went into the garage (where most of H's junk is now kept), I saw his suitcase and overnight bag in there. Those were always kept at OW's house. I wonder why he now has them in our garage?

I know the termoil I am feeling is because this is still not what I want. I know that I can forgive and trust my H again after all of this if I was given the chance. I don't want to divorce him. But I also know that nothing has changed in what feels like a very long time and nothing is going to change unless I do this.