S&A - I just saw your note to me on this thread. Gawrsh, thanks. It feels good to be recognized. I have done a lot of work on myself to get to where I am...but it was worth it.
I don't know where your situation is on this board, or maybe it isn't...I was going to look for your thread to talk to you but couldn't find one. Sorry for hi-jacking, NTE.
And also NTE - please don't despise yourself. I know that sometimes we need to feel that way in order to propel ourselves into action to change. But there isn't any gain in a long term self-despising attitude. Create forgiveness toward yourself for whatever you despise about yourself, and then move forward toward more and more change. The world will help you, but first you have to take the first steps...I know you are standing at a precipice wondering which of 1,000's of paths to take, not wanting to take any of them for fear of failure. But - just pick one path, and if it turns out to be the wrong one, come back and take another one. It will eventually be the right path. You will just "know". I hope this all doesn't sound too "woo-woo" and esoteric. I mean it all literally.
