Guess you guys were right about my feeling coming in and out. The last few days have been just blah. Doing lots of stuff with D and I have spoken or seen my W briefly each day. The full anger is gone now and after my W leaves I do still miss her....well the old her. I can see she's so different now. But even when these missing feelings come and get passed them with anger. I'm angry at her for what she's done but I'm angry at both of us for allowing it to get to this point. I know why she got to the place she's at but I still can't believe this women I fell in love with was so weak to give into it.
Last night I was thinking of the holiday season and how that's going to work. No tears came but I was sad to think I might not be able to spend every holiday with Abby. I don't know where I'll be at in 6 months, but to spend a major holiday without my D is going to tear my heart out.
All this because of W!
M 35 W 28 D 4
Bomb 4/28/08 Found out about PA 05/14/08 Separated 5/25/08 (not legally)
