He has golf league tonight and will be already gone when I get home from work. I am going to see a movie with my girlfriend and her mom. We'll get a drink and dinner after that. I told him about the movie plans last weekend, but doubt he will remember, so out of courtesy I will leave a short note. With any luck I will be able to return home after he does, and just sleep on the sofa.
I also feel like he is being driven by guilt. Guilt because of my illness and because he witnessed the destruction (small town!) of my first marriage and knows how badly I was hurt by that. I can easily believe the EA, have real trouble with a PA. Guess if it is revealed to me I will know, and decide what I can live with at that time.
I am familiar with the emotion of an EA. I felt that thrill myself about 7 years ago. I suppose it could have been my MLC. It happened during a hard spot in our M. I recognised it for what it was, and nothing came of it. My H never even knew. I have to say that is a double edged sword. It gives me forgiveness since I know it can happen, but boy does it hurt thinking he has those feelings for someone else.
How did you breakdown?
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
