Ok, Here is an update. The wife and kids got back last night from their ten day trip and I picked them up at the airport. I had been going back and forth all day about how to handle my wife. In the mad rush of grabbing luggage, kids etc, I kind of surprised myself. Quick side hug, peck on the cheek and that was it. It felt like seeing my sister! I went to bed when we got home, she did not for another couple of hours. Due to my schedule today I have not seen her at all. I am trying to figure out what this means. This was not really the action/ response I had been thinking of. I have not been able to pull myself together a whole lot lately, and I am still working through figuring out who I want to be. I despise the person I am now, but I need a positive goal not a negative one to really progress.
