Update: H has called me to tell me about a possible job opportunity for a civilian position in Iraq. Wants to know if I'll take care of our three dogs for him in the FORECLOSING house which he still is in denial about (he is convinced he's keeping it/foreclosure scammers have gotten him believing this)...anyway. What a day. In his search for a new job he is now hoping I'll move back into the house if he has to be gone for a year in Iraq of all places. I told him we'd have to play it by ear, I don't have the heart to tell him what a crazy idea this is not to mention that the house is going to be soon not ours. I am getting ready to sign a lease for a new apartment next month. With my flight attendant job I can't take care of three dogs and a house by myself; even if he'll "be paying the mortgage"; I could never trust him to do that, not right now. Too much healing to be done and it's not as if we are even close to being back together. I know probably none of this makes sense to you guys; just trying to figure things out. Good news is: H apologized for the way he acted about the flight benefits.I'm hoping he's sincere so I'll "act as if" he is...waiting for some wisdom from God. I sure as heck feel like my head is spinning right now.
