Ooh, that's a tough one. I can understand your frustration.
For us, there's not much of an option when I think about it. I'm not moving to GA in the next 2 years and he can't stay here. I'm probably getting ahead of myself. I wish he could get a family waiver and stay here til S16 graduates. It's hard for me to think about taking the kids out of this nice quality of living in a house big enough for all of us in a stable, safe community and me and the kids having to go to something really small in a less than desirable part of town. Even if I moved to GA with him, the housing there is horrible and we'd have to live off post. The town surrounding post is very bad and there's no way I'd want us to live there or let S16 go to high school there even if we lived on post. But I'm trying to take SMW's advice not to "borrow trouble". One day at a time. Sometimes, that's one HOUR at a time. lol
I just listened to a voice mail message that H sent 2 wks ago that somehow I missed. In it he's saying that he's sorry for all the things he did to destroy our marriage to the point where it wasn't fixable anymore. He said that we both just need to move on and accept that we aren't good for each other and that we can't be married to each other anymore. Hm.
I was thinking today that at those times where it seems like he misses me or wants to stay with me, I'm wondering if it's not really ME, per se, but rather not wanting to be alone. He seems to strike out with every woman he tries to start a relationship with (some of this I've heard through the grapevine). But my counselor said that he may act like he wants me because he keeps getting rejected and he just doesn't want to be alone. Plus, he misses the kids. I want him back but I want him to CHOOSE me, not be with me out of default and not wanting to be alone. I'm the Queen Bee or I'm outta here! lol :-)
