Hey lodo, sorry about the overwhelming feelings. It comes and goes for a long time but yes! you'll be okay.

Here's my take on W wanting to do lunch - it's her birthday, you're not going to her party, she still wants to get her present from you!!

If I were you and not going to the party then I wouldn't offer a present, just a card. That's life without you. Sucks to be her.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.