I'm kinda sorta wondering how to explain how I "met you"......
Isn't it about time you came to visit Niki? LOL. Waaah. I want to meet a friend for coffee.
Macy's better--- trying to keep her quiet enough to heal up.
In a strange coincidence, we had a "private caller" siting the same night I posted last. Hmmm, I have posted so much identifying info... has anyone ever had someone find their sitch on this site that knows them?
We just decided we were in too good a mood to answer a call from someone who went to the trouble to hide their identity.
It really didn't even trigger this time. Time (with consistent marriage proofing behavior) works. The heat is making him so very cranky/moody when he gets home. I remember questioning every mood last summer... wondering if he wasn't happy. I was waiting for things to go back to *whatever it was that made him disrespect me enough to betray me*.
When he's working so hard and we still have money problems, I wonder if he feels he's doing it all for nothing again. He gets mad if I pay the "wrong" bill! I have to figure out how to deal with this issue in a way that we can resolve it without him just keeping his "resentment" inside. How do I get him to just not resent something so ridiculous? I could totally understand if I were out buying all the cute shoes and purses and hats I wish I had. But I don't. I don't spend "jack" on myself... even if it's cash sent from mom for a birthday present. We took a big loss this year. It's just going to be a while before we can keep some semblance of living the lifestyle we had without occasional struggle. This is a preview of what is going to happen this week because I see it coming. I know, no expectations. But. This happened a few weeks ago and it got really ugly before he agreed that he was insane. I have to figure out how to deal with this beforehand this time so things go better.
A few weeks ago I just knew he was steaming and ready to explode. I maybe should've just let him be. But I couldn't. I don't want harbored resentment building up. Maybe it won't? Go with the "AS If" and deflect everything until a "better time" and try to dialogue? I don't think I can get him to retrouvaille because he just won't write things down. Or read so much. Funny that never bothered me when I married him, but.... ugh.
I'm going to go put on a hoop skirt, sun bonnet, and sand the picnic table or something............be back later.
