Can it REALLY change?

[7 Year Itch]

Well I'm damned if I do damned if I don't. We ML again on Sunday night. Really nice, he even said it was really good. Then yesterday the wrath came. He gets mad at himself because he feels nothing for me, still is resolute on getting a divorce, and doesn't want to give me hope. So his anger at himself gets turned on me, and he gets mean.

IT was not a good day yesterday. Ended up with same old D and R talks. Lots of emotion. Yet when I ask if I can still reach out, he says yes. So I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

I guess I need to refocus on me, and LRT and just let it all go for the time being. I just don't know what I"m supposed to do anymore. He wants me on board for the divorce and to get with him on that, but I just can't. I know in my heart it's not right or what should be happening.

Chris