I'm thinking I really need to put an end to this cycle. No matter how much I GAL and have a PMA, hoping for a positive outcome for my M means I'm waiting for him to come home. I don't want to spend my life waiting anymore. But then I also have been reminding myself to be patient and go for what I want - and I remember someone posting the story about being 5 minutes away from your miracle.
You are in your own place now and you are moving forward. Not saying that your H won't ever come home but you need to get the idea out of your head. If you accept that the M that you had is gone can you still leave the future open to whatever possibities may come? Quit trying to figure out what your H is going through and just accept he isn't emotionally available to be the H you need him to be...it doesn't even sound like he is able be the BF the orge needs him to be.
Keep moving forward enjoying your life and the answers will come.
