Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

Thanks LIS. Don't worry about me getting too high. There've been a number of times where WW started what I thought was coming around only to find out she'd been in contact with OM all along or trying to arrange a meet after not being in contact for a bit, but this time seems different.

In the past she'd be really down and then all the sudden her mood would change and I'd be thinking "great, she's figuring it out", but I now realize it was only her getting her fix again that made her in the good moods. The last 8 weeks have been a more gradual thing with the periods of moodiness lasting varying time periods, but then when she'd start to respond again it wasn't the "high" it was before. It's just been a gradual thing this time with the last couple weeks seeming to get better and better each few days.

But again, I'm not getting my hopes up too high. And I'm ready to go the separation/D route if I find out there's contact that she doesn't tell me about or lies about. But I just feel like this time is different and my exposing to the kids and their reaction/treatment of her and the affair may have been the final push she needed to end it permanently. And how she's been acting the last 2 months kind of makes me think that's the case. And I've had a number of people tell me on this board and another that it took their spouse a month or month and a half to get over the anger at the exposure that finally ended the affair and then another few months for their spouse to recommit to the marriage.

That's the kinds of things that make me think this is progressing as the script calls for and what gives me hope, but again, I'm not getting too high because the fall is just too hard.

Thanks for the comment.