There are some times that we take what is really not that big a deal and just turn it over in our minds so much that it becomes a big ole headache. I had one of those yesterday.... My D12 is leaving Thurs. for church youth camp, and one of the women organizing the trip called to remind me that I still needed to turn in a contact sheet.... "oh, and by the way, X is driving the bus, just didn't wan't you to be surprised when you get to the church and see him" Ummmm... thanks for letting me know.
Like I said this is not that big of a deal I realize. He is not exactly involved with the activities and maybe won't even be around the kids.... but dang it! So, of course in my mind I begin to conjure up all sorts of thoughts.... well if he is driving(which is so far from anything he'd consider doing while we were married) then that means his new stepson( around D12's age) is probably going and new wife may just be one of the chaperones..... uggghhh!!!!! Surely they will have the forethought not to have her as my D's group chaperone!
and so it turns over and over in my head spinning like mad. I'm beginning to get angry with myself for always seeming to fall back into the angst!!!! Get over it already... I'm sure he's long over anything dealing with me!
I know it's early but heck, somebody please pour me a stiff one....
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
