lost and confused

[cat03]

hey ritad, how long you've been separated (I'm assuming you are?).

He is sure one confused if not depressed person, when men suffered depression they deny it and try to quell it with something...or somebody. That's why he keeps trying to find the answer to his unhappiness in women (obviously, he isnt' finding it)
He might also be ashamed to admit he's done wrong and that's why eh can't find it in his heart to go back to you.
If thinking about dating makes you sick then it is not the time to think about, but can still move on. He could be in this limbo for one more year ..or 3.
You have to take care of yourself for you and your child, you can't just sit there hoping he'll "snap" out of it.

There is really nothing you can do, only he has the power to realize what he is doing and change himself, for any kind of chance to build a M he has to be the one to come back repentant and ready. Until then you have to rearrange your life with him out of the picture. I know it is very hard and it hurts to think of a future without him, but in order for you to function and to live without so much grief and heartache you must accept he isnt' ready and just focus on you and on your son.
Fill your time with good stuff, go places with your son, meet friends for coffee, do stuff you stopped doing for xyz reasons.

Hugs)))))))) you can make it, I pray God gives you the peace you are seeking, you will be all right))))