Thank you Kat, Jeff, Mark, h4h, and Sara. I have been reading everyones situations but not taking the time to post at all. Sometimes I feel I need to take a breather from analyzing situations.
I am using all of your recommendations and trying to get my "head" there.
H and I are making memories. We went biking in the arboreteum this last weekend and snuggled watching movies. We did lots of talking and this is good. He never talked much before and he is finally talking about just everyday things. I like this. He is also making plans to do things with other people. I like this, too. He needs to have interests on his own to be interesting to me.
I had a good test this weekend. I went to the Sex and the City movie with an old girlfriend from high school. She is single and wanted to go out after. So, we did. I had fun looking for "potential mates" for her...NOT ME!!! We went to a couple of the hangouts I used to go to while separated. I had no desire to be with anyone but my H. A guy that I had met during that time came up to me and started flirting. I ended it immediately and left with my friend. No "pull" to do that anymore. Maybe things ARE getting better at home. I texted my H messages that night and he called once and I answered immediately. It was a good night.
Still no intimacy. God, I'm so scared. I have been losing weight without realizing it...like over 10 pounds. I know I am still having depression issues.
So, in a nutshell, that is where I am at right now. Wish it was sunny today instead of dark and miserable.
