Donna, I have read some of your posts. You are trying so hard with every method possible (therapy, etc...) to stop the pain. My H had an affair with my friend. One week after he left he was taking her everywhere (to my son's games, church, all over town) so she was always in my face. He then married her w/out telling me and my sons were in the ceremony. Then, they moved into the house I had just moved from. I am not saying this because I feel sorry for myself. I have always relied on my faith in God and that and time were all that worked to heal me. The one thing I did do was stop contacting him at all. We have 3 children so communication now is about them. It has been 5 years now. I thought of nothing else for close to three years so it takes time. I think you are trying too many things to help yourself. A verse I held onto and even carried in my pocket was "Be still and know that I am God" What my children have seen is a mother who relies on God and knows he alone knows my future.
