i guess i have had time to thik about things and i need to strip things down a bit.

the r wasn't easy. we had a lot of outside stressers, x'es, kids, distance, money. money for me being the main thing. i'm broke and ready to see a bankrupsy atty. between going out to eat all the time and gas prices(we live 30 miles apart) it just drained me. lack of sleep was another huge thing. the boys and i were going to move out there, and i had some fears and stress with that. there were times that i had conflict over wheather it was all worth it. i am sure that i conveyed that someway. i decided yeah it was worth it. the last 2 or 3 weeks i was still stressed about money, i just didn't want to whine to her about it. we each went through our lives, they were very parrallel we have both been broken down. we are good together, but we went too fast. i want another chance to do this right. there were things that i did wrong, and i should have known better. we were a good family, even though we became a family too fast. with her being wh she is, and me being me, with more time to build us(the right way) we can be a great family. i am willing to do the work, because i love her, she is worth it. now i guess i wait and see if she feels i am.

I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.