i guess i have had time to thik about things and i need to strip things down a bit.
the r wasn't easy. we had a lot of outside stressers, x'es, kids, distance, money. money for me being the main thing. i'm broke and ready to see a bankrupsy atty. between going out to eat all the time and gas prices(we live 30 miles apart) it just drained me. lack of sleep was another huge thing. the boys and i were going to move out there, and i had some fears and stress with that. there were times that i had conflict over wheather it was all worth it. i am sure that i conveyed that someway. i decided yeah it was worth it. the last 2 or 3 weeks i was still stressed about money, i just didn't want to whine to her about it. we each went through our lives, they were very parrallel we have both been broken down. we are good together, but we went too fast. i want another chance to do this right. there were things that i did wrong, and i should have known better. we were a good family, even though we became a family too fast. with her being wh she is, and me being me, with more time to build us(the right way) we can be a great family. i am willing to do the work, because i love her, she is worth it. now i guess i wait and see if she feels i am.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
since i am being honest. i kind of feel like i am being showed something. i did make some mistakes, and maby this is God's way of not only slowing me down, but making appreciate the gifts in my life(despite, what i am going through now, she is one). i know a lot of people don't buy into that, but i do. i guess in the doubt, i didn't appreciate her. i am not beating myself up, i am reflecting. idk, maybe i need the soul searching as much as she does. i feel better today, just kind of miss her. got a busy morning planned so that's good.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
I asked XW if she wanted to keep the boys while I had a medical procedure done. Thats how it all started. She went off on me and told me that I am evil and never take responsibility. She brought up what I told people why we got D's. Mentioning F specificaly. Then she brought up me owing money. The only person I owe is F. I tried to diffuse, and talk to her, but she ended up hanging up on me. I called and left her a VM.
You clearly have talked to F cuz you know about the money I owe her. It's none of your business. I am asking you XW, please do not fill her head full of $#!t. She is a wonderful woman, and this is a huge loss to me. For the sake of me and these boys, we miss her, at the very least, I would like to have a friendship with her. Please don't fill her head.
I made a few attempts to contact XW to talk about things, and some text exchanges lead me to believe she preferrs to fight.
As of right now, I have faith in F that she will see through the BS. Still not making contact.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
WHAT? Did your girl call your ex? I don't get how they ended up communicating... Whichever of them initiated, this is jacked up.
If F contacted Kari, you quite possibly have another drama queen on your hands and you'd better wake up quick. It is totally unacceptable for her to contact Kari if that's what happened.
I really hope I am reading this wrong this morning...
i think xw contacted f. f is smarter than that. of course you know what issue came up ambien. WTF i had talked to F about it, and she said that xf needs to stop throwing it in my face. hoefully her atitude doesn't change. this is f'd
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
as far as why. i don't know. maybe to see what we can take, to prove to each other what we can take. maybe to force me to leave my past behind. maybe reaping what i have sewn. i don't know but ireguardless, i still feel she is worth it
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
No honey this is ain't rocket science either this is straight up gossip mongrel-spurned bitch of an ex fueled DRAMA now and if your girl contacted Kari - I think you have some rude wakeup calls coming your way.
Why would Kari contact her out of the blue?
I hope you have your boots on man because the BS is stacking up around you.
I have a very bad feeling about this, Blynd.
F never should talk to Kari.
And if she is doing it willingly, your opinion of her may soon change because that's a whole new kind of betrayal right there...
