Today was a good day, everything seems fine. I heard back from Retro. (Still no confirmation) son and I are leaving in two weeks for our father and son trip. So why I am not excited? Why am I not all calm? Why do I have this sick feeling on my stomach? I have come so far and now I don't know if I am ready. It would be so easy to just crawl back onto my shell and just let things go. But I know I can't do that. I know I need to confront this problem but I am so scared. I don't know why.
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
