Thank you guys, I have been punching pillows, mattresses, a ball that exploded, anything soft enough, and I do feel better after that, for a bit. The situation with W is at the lowest - we basically don't talk to each other. I made it clear I have nothing to say and she is going along with it pretty well, meaning... she is not talking to me and she is fine with that. Anyway it is what it is - I cannot stay close or talk to her without feeling enraged..... besides I really lost much of my hopes, at least for what is going on now - she has a relation with this guy at work - she doesn't feel guilty about it, she doesn't think she is ruining the life of the kids, and about my pain she said once that "this is what happen when people divorce, the left one suffer more - there is nothing she can do about it". Once she also said she is not made of stone - but I am shocked how cold blooded she is in proceeding with her affair and divorce. She is like one mind - she never showed a doubt - or an hint of regret. So here is where I am now - the divorce is inevitable - so be it. I need to get the anger out, exercise and try take care of myself.
