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[girlfromipanema]

So, sweetie pie.. I hope that you're chucking the guilt, or not holding onto it when you speak of forgiveness.

I feel like I've completely forgiven myself for hitting him. I am not proud of myself, and I regret it more than anything, but I don't feel guilty about it for the most part. He says he's glad that I've forgiven myself, but he needs to forgive at his own pace. One thing about my H, he can hold on to a grudge indefinitely. He has a "if you're not with me, you're against me" mindset. Very rigid in his thinking. It's something I admire and something I loathe.

PS.. how is the painting, kayaking going?

I finished my first (ever) painting on Saturday. I'm not that pleased with certain aspects of it and would like to correct some of it. The parts I'm not happy with are parts my teacher helped me paint. To me, the perspective is off and the technique/style doesn't match the rest of the painting. I just don't want to tell her I don't like that part because she did most of it! I'm looking forward to starting something new. Lake kayaking in the Sierra Nevadas is just two weeks away!