Call done by 9:00am. Appt set for Thursday at 4pm.
We talked more last night. H claims he is so lost, thinks I am so strong. He said "I am a mess and you are fine with this". I told him one last time "I never wanted this D. I think we could repair this and be happy, truly happy. But I can't live like this anymore". I won't say it again, he heard me. He was the one that brought up the mediator, so I had to make the appt. My anger at the situation is pretty much gone, I am just sad now. Trying so hard to look at the silver linings.
I could postpone and stall this appt, but really. H hasn't said or done a thing in the last year to make it appear that he has changed his mind. Why wait any longer?
