I'm not so together, remember I've done this before. I was married the first time for 19 yrs. I divorced my XH because he couldn't be faithful, and the 3rd A was with my best friend and neighbor. It had been going on 5 yrs. As hard as all that was, I have decided that I don't want to be divorced again.
My XH and the OW never married and don't even live together. They see each other on weekends etc., and sometimes he stays at her house, but he has his own home and often is alone. I would not want to get back with him for even one minute, but I often think about how it might be for our sons if we had not divorced. We all lost so much.
I'm glad you had a nice time this weekend. Remember, two steps forward, one step back. I think the trick is to remember the forward steps when you're unhappy about the back.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.