"LOL.....I know you think I am a critical, controlling lunatic, but really..it is not as bad as it sounds when it comes out of the keyboard."
Actually you remind me a bit of me.. that scares the hel* out of me.
"I have issues to deal with, but I have made a tremendous amount of improvement in these 2 short months."
Let me say this as clearly as I can.. The work NEVER stops. The second you do.. right back here you will be.
"You would have had to see me in action to know how truly bad I was and how far I have come in this short time. I have no plans of going back. Whatever it takes I will do. I have never been so determined about anything in my life before, honestly."
I feel fairly confident I have a pretty clear picture. I seriously would consider finding and talking to someone. It helped me a lot. Still does as a matter of fact.
"That is not the case....it is just frustration coming to the surface."
Again.. let me say this really clear.. If I can see it here.. she can see it there.. Trust me on that one. You aren't that good.. I don't know that it is possible to hide things that well. Just like Bworl said.. if she can sense it.. she may act on it.. so again.. get some help with this. If posting is working.. you definitely need to talk it out!!
You picked out two good things that have happened.. its good that you can see them. Just keep it slow and steady.. baby steps.
Oh.. and did I mention.. Find someone to talk too? Again it will help more than you think.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
