OK!! Vague = good!!! Maybe vague is easier for me to understand than mysterious, and mysterious is good, right???
OK, I'm trying to figure out the best time to meet him, considering the festival schedule.
I have a day off on Saturday (the 7th). That would be the easiest day to see him, but he identified his free time days as starting on the 8th.
On the other days I am "free" from 12.30-4 pm (not really enough time to get myself looking hot and then into NYC) and after 6. So maybe I could suggest we meet for dinner? Though dinner is maybe more date-y than lunch?
Other possibilies: -I ask him if he is available on the 7th -I ask my group to switch our free day from the 7th to the 8th (possible) -I talk to the festival organizers and ask them what they would suggest (they are sympathetic to my situation I think and could keep a secret) -?????
I want to try to suggest meeting with him early in the time frame he suggested so on the OFF CHANCE he wants to meet again I can do that while I'm still here....
Other than that, I had a good lesson this morning with the awsome cello teacher here. I think I am doing a good job being myself, being happy, relaxed, and looking hot. Yesterday I met a friend's boyfriend (they are a gay couple) and the boyfriend was like, "I LOVE YOUR ENERGY, YOU HAVE NO 'WALLS,' YOU ARE AMAZING" ??? And then today at the grocery store, the grocery store man asked me if I was married, and if I wanted to get married [to him], and told me he helps beautiful women every day.
Apparently my mojo is WORKING!!
Also, my friend from ATL who is also here at the festival asked me if I lost weight? So did the cello teacher here who hasn't seen me since December. I think the facercise is also WORKING...
It's funny, this morning in rehearsal I was thinking about B, and how much he would love playing the piece I am playing, how it would suit his musical energy. And I realized that aside from all the b*&*s*&* that happened, this man was my BEST friend for FIVE years, and I still really love him... *sigh*
When I see him, should I let myself feel that, or should I try to be NUMB? Do I put that special loving warmth into everything, or do I act kind of cool? Or ... loving, warm, yet vague??? You KNOW I love to PLAN AHEAD....
time for a quick nap, I've only gotten 8 hours of sleep in the past 2 days...
