She never moved out, but in some ways I wish she did. In other ways, maybe I would not have forced myself to grow as a new person if things had unfolded in any other way.
Trust, probably I may never trust her fully. I may not need to because I have learned to trust myself and my feelings (does that make sense?)
If there is any inkling that some thing perhaps may be going wrong, the marriage is not working or I am not happy, then I'd end things. It's really based on my happiness now, not hers.
I supposed I am asking myself now; Is this okay for me, or do I require that unconditional fully trusting love?
I don't know the answer to that. I know I am happy within myself. That's what matters, and that's where it all has to start, am I right?
IS 49 W 47 S 21 D 19 S 16 M 24y Together 31y EA Mar04-May 06 PA Feb06-Jun06 EA May07 Bomb Dec 28 07
Footfalls echo in the memory, down the passage which we did not take, towards the door we never opened Into the rose-garden. T. S. Eliot
