Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[blindsided1]

Well, I hope everyone had a good weekend. I spent most of the weekend nesting - hardcore. I cleaned both Sat and Sun. I got a lot done, though. H didn't call all weekend. I had talked to MIL earlier on Sunday and then H called later Sunday afternoon. He only called be he had talked to him Mom and she told him that I had been having little contractions. He said "how come you didn't tell me when I talked to you Friday?" I said because I didn't talk to you Friday, I haven't talked to you since our class on Tuesday." Kinda of sad that he doesn't even know that he hasn't talked to me in 5 or 6 days. Back to being insignificant again, I suppose.
He's gone. It's pretty obvious that he has checked out of our M all together. He doesn't contact me or check on me or flirt with me like he did a few short weeks ago. I feel very alone and distant from him. Here we are, about to have a baby and he's completely detached. It's like we don't even exist. Well, at least I don't exist. We talked for a few minutes and he was just off somewhere else, I had to keep repeating myself. Then he said, "let me call you back in a minute". And, of course, did not. He's off in his own world and the baby and I don't seem to be part of that. I just want to stop caring, like he does. I'm tired of hurting and missing him and loving someone who obviously does not love me.

So, that's my Monday morning blues.