Now you see where you felt that coldness.. this is what I was talking about the other day. Even something on your mind can show up where the other person feels it. This is what I think you are fighting a little bit. I really think she can sense the "Craziness" going on inside your head. (Don't be offended.. I use "Crazy" to describe a lot of things)
I do believe that was my imagination. This just goes back to my being so insecure about this whole mess.....and greedy. I want it all....
Look at all the time spent together and all we have been doing. I give her the time when she wants it, as little as she does ask.....but in my mind it's grudgingly.....I AM crazy, so no offense taken. I want to be with her 24/7....never let her out of sight....and if she senses that, she is not fighting it very hard, is she???
She had the chance to go with a girlfriend the other night and stayed with me. I am at a point where I would like to see her do more without me so that I can prove to her that the smothering, insecure person I am...was?...won't be anymore??...is going away.
I forget where she was going one night, but she asked me if "I was going to be mad if she went?"....sad, but that was how things were for her all those years.....smothering.
