H has become kinda clingy lately. I am not complaining, it is just completely different from how he has acted for the past year. Friday night I went to dinner with a friend and he started texting me, and I decided to go by his place on my way home.
We just sat around and talked. This was by far the most talking we have done in a while. We sat up until after 2 am talking....and I mean R talk. I tried to keep it very light and not get emotional. H was the one that started this so I wanted him to feel comfortable with talking to me about it.
He actually cried and told me he was so sorry. He said he made the biggest mistake of his life and he wasn't even sure why he did it. He said that whole time just kind of seems like a blur. He said it was kind of like an out of body experience. He said even when he was moving out, his body was packing all his things...but his mind was saying "what the hell am I doing?" He said he felt like he had gone to the point of no return and he had to go through with it and he felt like if he was a jerk to me then maybe I would just get tired of him and file on my own.
We even talked about OW and how that happened. I was actually pretty empathetic during that part of the convo because as I have said before I can see how that could have happened. At one point I asked him if he thought things could be normal between us again and he said "I sure hope so."
He asked me to stay the night again, so I did. He was much more touchy during the night than he has been lately. The next morning I told him that I was going to Birmingham for the bachelorette party and he seemed disappointed. He asked when I was leaving and I said around lunch time but I had a lot to do before then. Again he sounded disappointed and said he was hoping that we could go to lunch before he went to work. I told him I couldn't since I had a lot to do but maybe we could do something when I got back Sunday.
Well, yesterday he started texting me at about noon asking when I would be home. I ended up leaving a little later than I thought so I got home pretty late and I was just going to tell H that I would see him the next day. He kept texting though and so I decided to go by and see him for a little bit. Told him I was sorry I left so late since we sort of had plans. He said it was ok, he had just been looking forward to seeing me all day. I didn't stay long since I was so tired and we made plans for tonight.
I am not sure where this change came from. He no longer seems wishy washy and he just seems happier in general. I like seeing him that way so hopefully the change will stick.
On another note, we had SO much fun at the bachelorette party. I was kind of dreading it but I ended up having a blast. I had a few guys buy me drinks....so that is good for the PMA!!
