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just a bit of pity party today woke up in a funk working on it, I will be fine.


gotta drop the pity parties. Do some crunches. Do some push-ups.
Work on your core exercises.

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I don't know what she is thinking, maybe that's why the funk. Have always been able to 'read' my W, but in this sitch I just have no idea. I could look in her eyes and tell, but since she won't look at me eye to eye it's perplexing! They say the eyes are the path to the soul. Yes, I always make myself look good when I know I will be seeing her. Whether it works or not only she knows that for sure.


You'll drive yourself crazy trying to figure out what she is thinking. You can't read a WAW that's why you have no idea. One day she will be fine, the next day she'll suck. She's riding a coaster, let her ride and you stand to the side and wave as she go's round and round. Just be prepared to comfort her when she gets off the coaster and she's throwing up. ;\) When she comes to talk or brings something up, actively listen and validate her feelings. Give her a shoulder to cry on and be her sounding board. Be her "rock".

She's not looking you in the eye because she carries lots of guilt. Guilt from the M, guilt about leaving, she may even be carrying guilt about things that happened in her childhood. She might mistakenly think she did something to bring all that on.

You be patient, she will look you in the eye. You don't backslide, you man up. You be better. I guarentee she will at the least, look you in the eye.