Today was the most amazing day ever! I woke up to the phone ringing and it was my wife. I didn't answer but when I finally came to I am like great here we go again, another day of misery.
So I go hop in the shower and do the normal routine where I start to think about my wife and what not. So I am sitting in front of the mirror shaving and just lost it. I looked at the person in the mirror and didn't like what I saw. I told myself that I am a better person and I am not going to let this misery take control of my life! I am a better person than this and enough is enough. So I finished shaving got on the phone and called some buddies and made a bunch of plans.
This saturday we are going to watch some bands play and have a guys night out. We then scheduled a trip to San Diego for my birthday which is over the 4th of July weekend. And the great thing is I stood up to my wife. She asked if I would be able to watch my son on saturday because she had plans. Sorry missy but I am going out, didn't really say that but I wanted to So she asked me where I was going but just said its a guys night out.
For some reason everything just dawned on me that ya my world came crashing down but it is not the end of the world. If my wife doesn't want to be with me there is nothing I can do to change her mind only show her what she is going to miss out on I have decided on a new attitude, DGAF which means Don't Give A F#$k!! Not saying I don't care or love my wife but I am just tired of feeling miserable and am not going to do it, I will have my moments but no one will see them.
So she asked me where I was going but just said its a guys night out.