I think I should have titled this thread fall down on face instead of slippage.
D13 has really been struggling and today had a meltdown. H tried to talk to her and she shut down and wouldn't talk. She asked to go do something with just me, so we did. She's understandably angry and she drew a hard line which she later said she'd think about (all this was in talks with me only, not H). After we got home, I told H I'd like to talk with him later and he agreed (he was watching a moving with D16). Anyway, I was hungry so before I started cooking I said what I was planning on cooking and that they were welcome to join me if they didn't have other plans. H and D16 had started another movie and after supper I went into my room and was reading and then took a catnap. D16 came in to show me somthing and I was just laying on the bed when H came in and told her goodbye. I was thinking about how to best help D's with some of this mess and it took me a second to realize he was leaving. I asked D16 if he was leaving and she said yes so I hopped up in time to hear the door close. This is the fall on face moment...I said "idiot" outloud and D16 heard me. I can't believe I said that in front of her. I appologized to her and told her he isn't and that I was just frustrated. I've been kicking myself ever since. I know I need to let it go, but it's her Dad and that was beyond rude of me. I'm just so frustrated and I feel like I'm left to deal with all the raw emotions all alone. I've got an appointment for D13 to see a C next week. I need to find a way to get him involved by consulting with him re: D's. I get so damn mad that he won't step out of his a** and ask! I know better. Oh well, next week will present another opportunity I guess. Sigh.
