Real life...part 3

[Starshyne]

Hi brokenhearted...I am actually in Illinois...in the town that has the gambling boat, antique shops and is home to the world's tallest man.

I will be going to the lawyer to have her start the paper work for the settlement sometime this week (once I talk to the pastor). I am scared. I have to give her a LOT of money (at least it is for me....$1,200) to write this up (then I won't owe her anything else). But if things change I can't get that money back. So if things are going to change, they better happen soon. I know losing money isn't a reason not to reconcile, but I will admit that it will be in my mind.

Don't know if H is coming home tonight to sleep. Don't care. If he walks in the front door, I will walk out the back.

When H came by yesterday he looked terrible. I think he has lost about 70 pounds since December. He could have stood to lost about 25 to begin with. He looks sickly. His eyes look sunken in. I worry about him.