Crud....I forgot to add this but it was too late to edit.
The survey REEKED of loving you but uncertain about her emotions. Not emotions of loving you, maybe of loving you too much and scared to "Go There" again.
Pre-wedding jitters???
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
Her child has been through the same thing. Knowing her, I know this is hard for her. I am not fighting, but I do love her. She was the first woman I loved, and I never stopped thinking about her. I am good as far as not being with her but in a week stuff like this don't happen, if it is something that can be or should be, then I gotta wait, and I don't want her to think that the door is closed. I have to get my book cases for the sake of the boys. I will find another way to let her know that the door is open. I need help on this. I am going to tell you all something that will piss people off. If I'm the only one left on this thread afterwords that so be it.
This has caused a lot of guilt in my life. I NEVER stopped thinking about this woman. I would think about her during my M, and she was the first thought I had after the D. I left it alone and got over it. Everything happens for a reason. If this is the end then okay, but it started, we got together, and I need to know that I did everything I could. I am hurting, yes. But I have to imagine that this isn't easy for her either. That she isn't thinking right. We went fast. Space will hopefully make her think about what we have, that bond. I didn't give it ti XW like I should have. I learned what not to do. I grew. Again, this was my light at the end of a tunnel. This is how I am looking at it. Did I love XW, yes I did. But this is a whole new level. It's not a needy love, it was a happy love. It is worth doing what I can do to keep it. Knowing that I will live without her helps. There is no feeling of need, it is all want. And I want it. My boys love her, they are hurt, they can't be brought on a roller coaster, and they won't. I won't put them through this again. I will find a way to make it all work. I always do.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
I guess it didn't bother me if she saw what I was emailing. I want her on a level where she knows that the door is open and my words to her directly did not convey that. My password will be changed.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
also, I know it's passe but, this woman isn't who I have been with. This has been all in a week. My girl is the one that walks in the door and chaces my boys around for hugs and wrestles with me on the floor. I don't know what happened, but no if this is who she truly is, then I wouldn't take her back.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
Richie, #46 is where you hedge your bets. Friendship is a huge value and you know it. That survey says a lot of things. It can also have a whole lot of meanings. All of which are not yoru concern right now.
What about him? He's a loser if he waits till she's unavailable then puts the move on her. Manipulative?
As far as the 'I never stopped thinking about her' I'll say this: I had a girlfriend from high school that was similar. Never got into a serious relationship because she was too messed up then. But I also never 'got over' wondering if she and I were better suited to each other.
My counselor always said to me "You were holding on to a fantasy of show she 'was', not a reality".
