Circles

[phoenyx]

I have had some time to think. We went awful fast. Both of us. It was as if we were makin gup for lost time. She recently went to third shift. Shortly after that we were both tired a lot. I don't think feelings changed, actions did though. Maybe too much too soon? Maybe it burned out for her. I guess in stress and all that, I lost my edge a little bit, she loved my edge. So I don't know what to do. I know we could fix it, I know how.... We could go back to considering ourselves undefined/unavalible, that was kind of our thing. Not seeing each other as much may be a good thing. When we do, it would make it count more. There is other stuff, but that isn't the point. I know how to make it better, I don't know how to get her back. I will have no contact with her. It's all up to whether or not she misses me. Wheather or not it's in Gods plan. This was sooo the light at the end of the tunnels for us. I don't want anymore learning experiences. I want Jaime.