Things are “ok” Wife is being really nice in a friendly way. No intimacy yet. WE have been trying pretty hard to get along. OUR problems are just as much mine as hers. (Except for the affair). We both take on the defensive stance when confronted by the other; we both accuse each other of things in a round about way. I am not taking fist fight accusations but like who left the T.V on or who ordered that book. Really silly things. I know a few of you are upset with me for not “going for” what I want. Hugs, kisses ECT. But I want all of the tensions gone by the time we go to retro. I do not want her to feel pressured. I also want to keep my mind open to the fact that this is not the end to my problems but a turning point. I think I am ready for a divorce if that is the conclusion we come to. But I am giving our marriage one last try. Yesterday son and I went to the pool hall for a few hours played 3 games and he won them all... (Ok I let him have 4 shots for every 1 of mine). Then last night I went to the other Pool hall / bar. Sat at the bar for a few hours. Made plenty of eye contact with this good looking blond. But for some reason this was one of those night that I had to get up to pee every 15 min. I does not happen all the time but this night was one of them. (It’s hell to get old). Just before I left another blond sat next to me. Maybe the peeing thing was someone up above telling me to go home…….. When I got home Son and I “camped out” on the driveway in the camper. Today has been good. Cleaned up around the house. The weather is getting better so I am going to leave the bikini on my jeep for one more week. . Then I need to put the hard top on for sons and my trip... Well W brought home some steaks for me to marinade and BBQ tonight so I will check back in later…
14 more days till camping trip with son 40 more days till retro……….Still has not heard back from them…
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
