I am directing this to you guys because you had so much input the last couple of days.
I know during this whole process I am supposed to keep an eye out for positive signs...in my situation, I think you can understand there is that constant confusion for me. We go out, have fun and basically spend all of our free time together...and I get the occasional reminder about not getting my hopes up.
Your comments about trying to get back on track and be the one to initiate a return to normalcy were things that were already on my mind, as I said.
Yesterday we had dinner with her relatives...a few beers, some good conversation......SHE texted me and asked if I wanted to go with her.
Keep in mind, previously I had passed up these family days so many times that she had completely stopped asking me if I would like to come along......one of her family members commented about how good it was to have me along for a change....I was the old me...joking, making people laugh....I can be a clown when I want....W was actually giggling at me..LOL
We were exhausted when we got home and she was quiet....went to bed before me. I let her have some space, but felt a little coldness.....just my imagination, I think, because she woke up this morning bright cheery. I made breakfast for the two of us and we relaxed and chatted for a while this morning.
I had planned all along today to just get out and do some work around the house, and let her go about whatever it was she was going to do with her day, and that is what I did.
Funny thing is, when she was done doing some laundry and housework, guess where she ended up?? Out with me, helping with the yardwork I was doing....she ended up letting the things go that she was doing and stayed out me with until I was finished.
Guess where she is now? Out getting something to make for dinner. She asked me what I wanted, because she felt like cooking us a nice meal.
Not that we have not been having fun, but today was different. Positive and normal.....feels good, but I am not getting my hopes up...LOL
