I do think you are right - I have to get angry to get through this. My good friend and old college room mate is a licensed psychologist in Seattle and he has been amazed at how I've not been angrier over this. In fact, he was very concerned that I was bottling up my anger and not letting it out in a healthy manner. I now see how right he and everyone else is. I do have the right to get angry, and I will.
Also, yes, I still in love w/ who she was. I'm in love w/ a ghost. That ghost was beautiful, warm, caring, and loving. I still love that ghost and probably always will. The sad part is I have to acknowledge that she's dead and gone. I have to let that ghost go. I don't love the woman I see today. The hard part is I can still see her beauty trapped inside. I can't save her. Only she can.
So, I have to let her go. I can remember the one I love, but I can no longer look to hold on to it.
