He's "done". Period.

[7 Year Itch]

Well, yesterday was ok. NOthing earth shattering. I went to get my hair cut and it turned out good. Then went out with my friend. I wanted to jump H when I got home, but I was good and didn't. He was up in our bed because our d2 comes in everynight, and I knew she'd freak if she came into our room and no one was there (he has been sleeping downstairs). So he fell asleep in here. I woke him up to let him know I was home, and was surprised when he asked how my night was, but then stayed laying there.

Of course it was too good to be true though, because then D2 woke up about 3:30am and came in and when she did that, she came in bed and he got up and went downstairs.

This morning I was getting ready for church and H told me he liked my hair and that it looked good so that is nice. But unfortunately for lots of others that would seem like a mega positive, with him I'm not taking ANYTHING he says great. Because he does still say nice things to me, tells me I'm a great Mom, tells me he thinks I'm a good person. He's just matter of fact that he no longer loves me, and knows he never will again. Poof.

I swear that is what is just killing me, is that I read stories on here with people rebuilding from FAR worse than where we have been. Yes my H just "doesn't have anymore to give?".

There are times I just want to freakin' shake him and say "WAKE up and GROW A SET!". I know that's sounds AWFUL and, I really do totally feel awful for the pain he's been in. For the lack of love he felt. And I do take responsibility for that. I truly do. But I just want to say.......... OK, then. Let's FIX THIS! NOW!

Why don't they get it? Why does he insist that the divorce road is the BETTER (I think he thinks easier) road to take?

Chris