right, but is that true? i am so confused. this all happened in less than a week? i want to let her know the door is open. sh has a past of picking out crappy men.
i just got my @$$ kicked by ian. and he is right. ugh, i have been so angry and not taking her feelings into consideration.
what if i sent her a quick email tonight.
being so wrapped up in my own hurt and anger, i didn't take yours into consideration. i respect that you got scared, and am respecting your wish of leaving you alone. nothing has changed for me. please know that i am here if you ever want to talk about all of this openly.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
I have had some time to think. We went awful fast. Both of us. It was as if we were makin gup for lost time. She recently went to third shift. Shortly after that we were both tired a lot. I don't think feelings changed, actions did though. Maybe too much too soon? Maybe it burned out for her. I guess in stress and all that, I lost my edge a little bit, she loved my edge. So I don't know what to do. I know we could fix it, I know how.... We could go back to considering ourselves undefined/unavalible, that was kind of our thing. Not seeing each other as much may be a good thing. When we do, it would make it count more. There is other stuff, but that isn't the point. I know how to make it better, I don't know how to get her back. I will have no contact with her. It's all up to whether or not she misses me. Wheather or not it's in Gods plan. This was sooo the light at the end of the tunnels for us. I don't want anymore learning experiences. I want Jaime.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
this was in an email she sent to me may 8th I fell in love with you for your caring, gentle manner, and you're ability to make me feel so safe and loved. I love how you parent your children, I love how you care for your mother and brother, I love how you have this uncanny ability to make me laugh when I want to cry. You are a rock, for more people than just me, and you and someone I am proud to have my son model after! You are the true definition of what a man is, and don't ever question my love for you, ever!
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
B, Let things settle for a while. Do not send an email this evening. She needs time to think about what's happening w/her, you and the both of you. Space and time are what is needed right now.
I know that things are all over the place, but you need some time to settle your heart as well. Be kind to yourself. Give yourself a breather and just let things be for a bit.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
I know, I'm not going to send it. I just want this to be saveable. I am in some financial trouble that I have been stressing about, maybe that tripped her out. But she maintained that we were a team. And it wans't a big deal. But I was stressing none-the-less.
Is it still space and time, if someone else is involved?
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
my problem is that 80% of people say she is coming back sooner rather than later, that she is just scared. i don' tunderstand how, but that's what they say. i see it as her blowing me off and hooking up with another dude that she sees greener pastures with, and that if that's who she truly is, then why would i want her
This is a valid point. I think that Bwolr and myself are saying that since you DON'T KNOW you need to at the very least not burn bridges.
Stand down for now. You're treating her like your XW.
you're right, i reacted in anger. i still have to get my piece in, i guess that will never change. she is confused. i can picture her going through hell over this. i am struggling a bit, but over all i am angry at the situation.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
