It's totally understandable that you wld feel both sad and frightened. Plus, a few other things like angry and hurt and loving. . . . Do you have plans for life after teaching - retirement w/o a plan for how you will spend your time and energy sounds like it wld be more negative than positive, to me. Especially under these circumstances.

Here is a quote from a newsletter that I get:
”When you feel miserable and focus on what feels bad, you can’t attract wonderful things. What you focus on just continues and reinforces your belief that ‘this is how it is’ and you are powerless to change it.”
—Dr. Alexandra Gayek

Definitely keep praying, but my suggestion is to focus on what you want to attract, not what you want to resist.


me: 47
H: 48
he has 2 grown sons
M 1995(my 1st, his 3rd)
hit iceberg 6/07
S 9/26/07
before
now